Wednesday, November 7, 2012

My Husband

This is him.  The man that I have spent the last 23 years with.  Our 23rd anniversary was October 18th.  We have had such a wonderful life together.  We have never fought.  We haven't always agreed on some things like raising our children, yard work, how to drive!  :)  Life has been very good to us.  However, our blissful world has come crashing down around us.  In the early morning hours of Sunday, October 28th, my husband was diagnosed with Stage 4 brain cancer and lung cancer.  How do you deal with news like that?!  I am finding it not so easy to deal with to tell the truth.  I consider myself a fairly strong person, but I am also a crier.  I cry when the dog is sick, or when I see a sad show on television, or when I see someone else cry.  I have had to try not to cry because with the brain tumors, my husband's emotions are all wacky and he cries a lot now.  Who knew?

He is the most wonderful man and the most perfect one...for me.  He has treated me like a queen our entire married life.  I sometimes felt badly because I didn't treat him like the king that he is.  He has taken such good care of me and our children all this time.  Now it is our turn to care for him.  It's not easy for him.  It's not easy for our children.  It's not easy for any of us, but we just take one day at a time and carry on.  In my husband's words, "It is what it is."

So, back to how to deal with it.  Prayer is the first and foremost strengthener.  Without that we would be nothing, truly.  I have felt the strength of the prayers from our family, friends, loved ones, and even people whom we don't know personally but they know someone connected with us.  It's amazing how this all works.  The Lord is truly in charge...of everything, and we just need to humble ourselves and turn it all over to Him.

My heart is breaking right now, but I am comforted in the fact that I know everything will be matter what happens, we are a forever family.  With that knowledge and the Lord's blessings, we can carry on.  It is what it is.